Between ex-boyfriends and passionate escapades, I had a lively fantasy life in my past. I was sexually adventurous. I was up for anything. I didn't worry that I'd be alone forever. There was always someone to turn my head. I didn't worry about it, to be honest, it just happened. I felt as if I... Continue Reading →
It’s Lonely at the Middle
Once upon a time, I had a family. I had two brothers, a sister, and a Mom and Dad. My siblings were a generation older than me, and they were married and had kids, so I also had nieces and nephews. When I was 21, my father died. At 25, my mom went too. Then... Continue Reading →
Alcoholics and Paper Tigers
Bob is an alcoholic through and through. For him, it's an act of rebellion. His big "fuck you" to the world. "Don't tell me what to do!" He is blatantly unrepentant in his love of booze, particularly beer. He has said to me countless times that he just likes the taste of it -- to... Continue Reading →
Word Matters
For the vast majority of my life, words have been my refuge. When the seas get stormy, I will write. I create. I use words to communicate joy, fear, apprehension, humor, and life in general. I have written papers, essays -- and while I've never authored a book, I have written fairly regularly in blog... Continue Reading →
Begin at the beginning
I mentioned previously that, when I went in for my hospital physical last week, I was shocked (SHOCKED) to learn exactly how much weight I'd gained over quarantine. As if I wasn't fat enough already, I gained an additional (almost) 40 pounds. I also mentioned that I was redoubling my dieting efforts starting immediately. Redoubling... Continue Reading →
Boiling Frogs
I am not faring well in the new spring heat. For the nth night in a row, I still can't sleep. I get a couple hours, then BANG! I'm up. It's probably my hormone shifts causing mini hot flashes. Whatever it is, it means long nights of being awake yet chronically sleepy. Sometimes, when I'm... Continue Reading →
When your life is a Nickelback song
This weekend, photos popped up on Facebook in a friend's folder entitled "Date Night" featuring photos of Bob and Tracy out on a couples date with her best friend and the friend's fiance. Plenty of photos of Tracy, looking boringly beautiful as always. Like Catherine Zeta-Jones, but a lot less interesting. Gorgeous high cheekbones, sleek... Continue Reading →
Does size really matter?
Never in the ever-so-long existence of my life have I exposed to so many penises since I've been in health care. It's the nature of the beast I suppose. We see patients at their most vulnerable which means pee, poop, and genitalia. We see you in areas it takes three mirrors to see. And right... Continue Reading →
The Gift of Being Lonely
Moba is an asshole. A bit more background information on our 70-year-old bad-art friend: Moba is recently single. Moba is also transgender. [Let me preface the rest of this article by saying that what I'm about to write includes my opinions based on observation. I am in no way painting those in the transgender community... Continue Reading →
Play Stupid Games, Win Stupid Prizes
This has been a week of being spectacularly stupid. I don't know why. Maybe because it's the end of the summer which forms a Dumb Shit Nexus just in time for Labor Day. I don't know. All week long, I'd been making dumb mistakes at work. Fixable, but time consuming. At home, I was dropping... Continue Reading →